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Sleep well all, I will join you soon.

Here is a teaser:
inｷterｷface n.

• A surface forming a common boundary between adjacent regions, bodies, substances, or phases.
• A point at which independent systems or diverse groups interact: 鍍he interface between crime and politics where much of our reality is to be found� (Jack Kroll).
• Computer Science. The point of interaction or communication between a computer and any other entity, such as a printer or human operator.

What I want to talk about is the first and the second, not the third.

Just a little more teaser. Wednesday things should become more clear.

So when I get home last night there is a box on my doorstep. Seems that my friend Janke had sent me a bottle of his Chu Chu Muscat (wine). It is nice to receive gifts from friend, especially when they are funny and alcoholic.

Actually bought an N64 to play Conker's Bad Fur Day. This game is a total laugh riot. I cannot believe how crude, crass, and full of profanity this game is. It is kinda like real life, except with more poo.

So I said that I would have more up on interface today, but that was kinda a lie. Maybe tonight. Maybe in the form of something other than a post real soon. We shall see.

My body did not let me get out of bed today. I slept pretty late. I feel great now though and that is what I need for tomorrow. The interface conversation I was to have today has been moved to next week and the talk I was suposed to have with an artist tomorrow might just get moved back as well. Maybe I will talk with him this weekend. I really need to get started on this as it is growing uncomfortably in my head.

These are my words, typed by my hands and preceived by my eyes on this virtual surface. These are an embodiment of my thoughts given form from the ether. What I choose to put here is an act of my own will and an intent to convey a though which I have. When was the last time you though not about what you are saying, not what about how you are saying it, but instead about the idea of conveying that thought?

So I was talking with my mother just the other day (last weekend like) and we started discussing her current reading list which includes several books on herbs and natural treatments. BTW, my mom is a big bad ass. One day I think she is going to become a zen master, then you all will really have to watch out.

If you know what this is ":-(", then you must read this. Just goes to show that people will believe that they are going to win a prize for forwarding an e-mail also cannot tell what irony and satire are. You people out there suck, and stop sending me stupid forwards and virus alerts (Soapbox Off).

Watched Blue Velvet last night. Good flick. David Lynch is a bad ass. Well, peace out, code calls.

Occationally life gets complicated and you find yourself in a no-win situation. Thoughts imediatly jump to mind where I wonder if cutting my losses is not the best option. Then I realize that there is a whole lot to loose. Grrr... Funny, it has been a really long time since I have posted an obscure reference like this one. Maybe I am getting back to my old ways. Nah (just a scare for X-ie ).

Peas....

There have been people that I have met in my life that I have had an amazing sync with right off the bat. It is occationally frightening the intensity of relationship that accompanies my meeting those people. I used to let it make really bad decisions, ones that were better in the short rather than the long term. I don't think that I am going to let that happen again.

Went to see Weszt tonight. Good show. Far too short. Going to try and grab a beer with the guitarist next weekend. They remind me of everything that I loved about Live way back in the day.

Kate arived late but safe. Should be a wonderful weekend.

I believe in something greater than all of us. Call it what you will it really doesn't matter. Some people are more tuned to it, or perhaps more plugged into it. This gives these people more intuition when it comes to dealing with other people. Sometimes I feel like I am swimming in it.

What I have to say:
For me, I am still tied to the functionality of the thing. Art, language, Dew Cans, they are all aspects of a larger thing. My ideas, are still fundementally unfulfilling until they are shared with someone, through some medium. That is my art. It is infused in every action I take and everything that I do. I am powerless to change what you might think about my art, but all the same it must be made.

The idea for this actually sprang forth from some animation that I once watched. The idea that there is a me inside my very own head and that me is the "real" me. There also is a me inside your head. When I say things, do things, write things, the me inside your head is the me that you precieve doing those things. There is absolutly nothing that I can do to make you understand those things the exact way that I intend them. There is nothing that I can do to directly change the me that is inside your head.

So, although I believe that I can do nothing to MAKE you to understand what I want to convey, my art is grounded in the idea that you MUST understand what I mean. The effectivness of art is the ability to make manifest the reaction that is intended by the artist. The medium and style is paramount to the message and substance. For me personally, the balance is the most important thing. Neither is more important.

That being said, I think that a work of art is not something that cannot be expressed in any other medium. Rather, the effectiveness of a work is very dependent on the medium. I for example apreciate particular presentations more than others. I like shiny things. If you want me to understand you better, then I recomend something that I will be more likely to want to experience.

Maybe it is more a view of art as a rhetoric. Style does not create content, although style can in itself BE content.

Some people are content with creating for themselves. For me humanity is defined by the interaction with other humans. I am very human and that is why I believe that without a communication the debate over weither something is or is not art is immaterial. It can be art all it likes it really doesn't matter to me if it exists in a box.

And a debate about absolutes is rediculous.

A friend of mine said recently that, "Everything is a beautiful, interconected blur." I tend to agree and so the scope of things has grown a bit in my mind. Now I am not only looking at interface, but at interconectedness. Causality (or at least causality as we understand it) is a very important aspect of my world-view. Instrumentality is another. So now the idea is three-fold.

Interface, Instrumentality and Interconectedness. Here we go again.

Instrumentality

• The state or quality of being instrumental.

Instrumental

• Of or designating a case used typically to express means, agency, or accompaniment.

And so by instrumentality I mean how we interact and how that makes us more complete and more human. More to come...

Although I fear failure, I wish to disagree. The assumption required to do this is that the self that I recognize as my own (its own) is experienced. This is to say that the self is able to observe the self. Here I fall into a potential pitfall. For such an observation is inherantly self referential. Hoffsteader would call this a strange loop.

The distinction that varies for me from person to person is that the self which is experienced is different. I experince my self (not myself), not your self or his self over there.

Can this awareness be encouraged if it is not already realized? I would say yes. The method that I use is a trial by fire method. The possibility for awareness is already present in each person. All that is needed is the catalyst, a certain amount of energy that will push the system beyond its state of equilibrium.

Everything is on hold, just like I thought it would be.

On a side note. My machine behaved itself completely last night. There was this patch from Microsoft which may have fixed my problems. I was able to play for about 5 hours last night without any hangs. We shall see if this fixes the problem. Then it is on to other things like getting the rest of my hardware up and running, including my second monitor.