When I was getting ready to move out here. I called her to tell her all about the changes that were going on in my life. At this point she was living out in Californa getting on with her life. During the conversation, I picked up on something which really bothered me. I sensed a drastic change in the amount of caring that existed in our relationship. I am not saying that this is a bad thing. We had grown apart and all for the better. In fact, besides a moment of pathetic pleaing on my part, I believed the situation to be for the best. I assumed that I would not hear from her again. I knew for certain that I would not be the one to contact her. It hurt to have the realization that I did. It hurt and it was wonderful. I was completely free, and completely alone. Interesting the balance there.
Perhaps the funniest thing about my respose to her short mail was how much I wrote and then rewrote. Like I was very careful with what I had to say. I realized this stopped doing it. I told her all about the thoughts that I had rolling around curently, and what I thought about my move to Florida. We will see if she responds to what I wrote. I hope that she does, and I hope that life it treating her as well as it can. She is something very special and deserves everything.
All that aside, today was a good day. Tribes 2 is working and work is working too. I was busy all day with my own stuff and showing the new guy around. I am working on things that make the game shiney. I like shiney. I hear that Peter's laptop like things which are shiney. Mo always liked shiney things. Anyway... life is good. Take care all.