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confidence is a wierd thing.

confidence is a wierd thing. i believe that there are 2 kinds: the kind of the self and the kind of others. when it comes to myself i am confident. i learn new things easy and am able to deal with situations of all kinds. when it comes to my confidence with others, it is something else entirely. i think the easiest way to put it is that i am afraid that one misplaced word could give a world of wrong ideas. of couse this fear keeps me out of situations and so now it is going to stop. what brought this on you might ask? well it has something to do with...

the mysterious providence of a phrase -or- sometime it is the smallest unintentional thing that matters most
a good friend kristen writes to me to tell me what she thinks about a trend in what i am writing and, in general, where my like is going. The analogy she spins goes like this: "It is kind of like making a list of bills to pay and a corresponding budget for the upcoming months so you can feel more confident about being able to pay them off. In the end, you are where you were when you began writing your budget. You may feel a sense of accomplishment, but you haven't really taken steps to appease your situation, have you?" You know what? she is absolutly right. thank you for your kind words and your encouragement. i really have not been balenced as of late. i am quick to retreat into the comfort of my ideas. i need more experience and i need to stop being so damn wimpy about it.

has someone ever come to you and said the exact right thing even if they didn't intend it? maybe a passing word or phrase that changed your outlook or just your day for the better?

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