a proof of the self by reduction. remove everything that you are not and you will be left with what you are. i am not a prep. i do not appreciate nice pants and dress shirts. i go not like rules and expectations. i love the idea of breaking stereotypes by getting out of my nice car in my cargo pants and tee-shirts. i love being sucessful despite apearance and expectation. i love the look on people's faces when they get to know me. screw the rules. here is to being yourself no matter what.
i have been hearing from a couple of people that i need to accept my position in life as a young professional. that my responsibilities to my job and my lifestyle somehow dictate and require a style of living that is "older" than the one that i am currenly comfortable with. i do not agree with this idea of living. it is true that i may not be able to be a college kid anymore, but that does not mean that i cannot continue to live with that mindset. i do not under any circumstances wish to be the kind of person who cannot relate to anyone just because i have had the fortune to be sucessful. what an amazing feeling driving into work this morning with the biggest smile on my face and a greater sense of understanding as to who i am and what i want.
a local muse tells me that i am successful. i of course resist this idea fearing stagnation upon the achievement of my goals. she provides another way of looking at it. success is not a destination. it is not that you are successful or not, but a transitory state, a path. you are successful if you are walking a path of success. interesting idea and in those terms, i guess i am successful.
well looking at aqua, i cannot say that i am all that impressed. that and this keyboard sucks ass.
17 hour day. yikes. i need to wash some socks. looks like another sandal day tomorrow.
alive, but not by much... beta in 3 days.
kickin' it hardcore. knockin' them bugs like they was nothin'.
not there yet, but almost to bed...