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my best wishes go out to those families and friends effected by the events of today. be well.

todays laundry list (excluding laundry):

• so my little sis is the big 21 today. i hope mom and dad are taking it well.
• slipping into a more routine and realistic schedule.
• went to a really bad museum yesterday and saw the largest collection of Tiffany lamps in the world. all i have to say about that is the arts and crafts movement sucks(ed).
• trying to roll my sleep cycle back around although staying out late and meeting people does not help that out all that much.
• conversations are good and validation feels even better.
• i once said that i believe the earth to be human's dominion. now i would have to say that it is more our habitat, although not in some humanity sacrificing kind of way.

• Battersea - Hooverphonic
• Offshore - Chicane
• Perl's Girl - Underworld
• Southside - Moby
• Weapon of Choice - Fatboy Slim

the weather was absolutly nearly perfect yesterday. i spent this evening reading and drinking coffee, wonderful stressfree evening. still looking for a good dive to drink coffee and read in. perferably a place with a patio and cushy chairs, although i think that i will deal as long as i can smoke. good coffee is also strictly optional but good company perfered. i am beginning to feel my stride returning. i probably will begin to write again soon.

the weekend was full of adventure, but i don't think that 3 nights out in a row is good on the body. this is shaping up to be a good week.

this looks to be an interesting week. thursday is my 24th and i am taking that day and friday off of work. not sure what strange variety of trouble i intend to get into, but hopefully it will be fun. i may just cut out of town and hit up the beach for a couple of days, read a good book and catch some sun. that would be really nice. maybe i will just go out and allow my friends to lay the hurt on me. it could go either way.

talked to my dad today about the effects of the September 11th incidents. i am still not sure how i have reacted to them. they are very much real to me and feel sadness over the extreme loss of life and innocence both then and coming soon. at the same time i hope that the recent resurgance of patriotism lasts long past the eventual military rebuttal to the attacks. everyone has been effected. everyone will remember.

oh, yeah. got to see the tenacious d on thursday. they say it and i tend to agree that they are in fact "the greatest band in the world". never before have i been rocked so hard by 2 slightly overweight guys with accoustic guitars. more on the show in my next post.

so yeah, the tenacious d concert. these guys are really good. seen the movie high fidelity? remember the angry clerk in the record store? that is Jack Black. he has one hell of a set of pipes on him for real. his partner in rockin' is Kyle Gass. they are incredibly irreverent and are funny as hell. when i got to the show i was not sure why the house of blues was so packed. why were all of these screeming fans there? what was up with the messed up demographic that they represented? why where there so many people at my work completly pumped about the show? it didn't take me long to understand. after watching the episodes of the hbo show i finally understood how these guys could claim to be the greatest band in the world. check them out if you get the chance.

so i am off to do some dieing now.

one of these days really soon, i am going to have a profound thought. and when i do, damnit, you guys are going to be the first to get a taste of it. perhaps i will get to work on that piece that i started so long ago. yeah, right... i will probably just curl up with a book and some laundry and watch tv and drink more water.

so i don't know. it is kinda hard for some of my friends and most of my family to understand why i don't really celebrate my birthday or any other holidays. i mean i visit my family during the holiday season and i make sure and call and all of that. i think at the root of this lack of endorcement lies the same justification that i use to explain my lack of belief in the institution of marrage. why do we feel the need to enshroud something good and profound in a larger thing to make it more significant? why do we need to take a relationship founded on the love of two people and have some ceremony and contract to make it something more? why do we need to take a day that has no real importance to me and try and add ritual and tradition that has been corrupted over the generations? there are too many holidays, and certainly too many hallmark holidays. maybe if we only had one then i wouldn't be so tired of it all. my advice, pick a day at random and make it your own personal holiday. call or visit your family, give gifts, throw a party. make it important for your own reasons.

and violet, i am reading your site as i type this...