1.) Can you pause it? and...
2.) Does it ever end?
one of the reasons that i find this funny is last week saw the launch of a new MMPORPG (or Massively Multi-Player Online Role Playing Game) called Dark Ages of Camelot. several of the guys at the office are already loosing much sleep to explore this new game, and i am not one of them. the reason for this is simple, i played a MMPORPG right as we were finaling called Anarchy Online. The game was great and sickeningly addictive. fortunatly for me, i got bored with the game as it really didn't have all that much depth. it helped me to understand a whole lot the nature of the addiction to these games. i kinda describe it like this:
most people consider marajuana a gateway drug. it leads you to bigger and more hardcore drug usage. imagine that your experiences with your gateway drug were really great at first. they left you thinking, "wow, i don't need a real life any more, i have this virtual one. and it is fun!!" but then you kinda just got bored. so you quit. but the strange thing is, having been addicted to something that you were able to throw away, you got a really good idea into the nature of addiction, and just decided that it wasn't really worth it.
that's what AO was for me, a glimpse at how addictive a game could be. thank god it sucked, otherwise i doubt that i would be posting right now, as i would probably still be in bed, trying to get some sleep after having been up until all hours.
last night i had a long conversation with a new friend and i had the privilage of getting in that strange zone where i am just talking but not really thinking about what i am saying. i really don't know if i can explain what this feels like. i mean i am aware that i am talking, but it is kinda like coding. it is almost as if there is something external to my conscious mind working my mouth or my hands. maybe it is kinda like i am channeling something, or maybe it is just the real me that my brain gets in the way of. no matter what the case is, it is always really cool to get into that zone, even if i don't really remember anything that i said. i think that i offended a little bit, but that was probably because we haven't reached the magic 24 hour communication line yet.