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so as i have said this weekend was disjoint. i spent most of it feeling about 3 seconds behind, or 3 feet removed from myself and the situations i was in. this was to a large degree the result of things that were cranking in my own mind. but last night found me in a carbon copy of last saturday. downtown, everyone (but me) in costume. same people, crazy like. but instead of making something more of the situation i focused on the two things that i needed to, relaxing to observe the situations around me, and trying to be a good friend. i am certain that i relaxed and observed a whole lot of strange shit, and i think that i may have been a good friend. here is to hoping.

and i think that it is important to tell people what you think and what you feel, but sometimes there is nothing to be gained by doing that and so it is wise to keep your mouth shut and your ideas to yourself. sometimes there is nothing to be gained by being so forward, and you only end up hurting the people that you are trying to get your ideas across to. and so tight-lipped i sit.

and tricky plays in my headphones to drown out the anoying banter of coworkers and a doc awaits, so i split.

my technology has begun to stop its revolt. my phone is managing to hold signal and get and make calls for now. my car has returned from the shop, my drier how does its drying thing. my computer... well... it runs for an hour without crashing. oh well, not like i do that much on it anyway.

i will post on my weekend encounters after i get some work done.

Weekend
friday turned out to be an unscheduled tiburon outing to see Monsters Inc. what a very funny movie that turned out to be. all i have to really say is that you should go out and see it post-haste, and holy procedural fur batman. then a jaunt downtown offered stronger drinks than i was ready for. oh, well, i slept well.

saturday, gym, car out of shop, game, downtown. meeting new people is always fun, especially when you actually get up the nerve to give one of them your number. rory and i came to an understaning that cleared up a whole lot of the misunderstandings between us. henry and meir and their respective and ex others were out as well, although they were down the street at a meet market like place. dropped in, felt uncomfortable and bailed back to my usual dive.

sunday, house cleaning, laundry, roast of hugh hefner. much laughs cowboy bebop, sleep.

and that is all i have to say about that for now. of course i haven't said anything about monday antics...

chana is coming to visit next week. there is a conference here and i nabbed some sick cheap tickets to get her to come. it should rock and i cannot wait. of course we haven't seen each other in something like 5 years. and that ended disasterously. hopefully this one will go much better.

my machine is about 1/2 fixed and i was thinking about working on it and my webpage this weekend, but instead it looks like it is going to be a working weekend. docs abound that need to be completed and so there we are mini-crunchin'. and of course i still have been lazy and not gone out to get my goggles.

it is a working weekend, so i think that i am going to get up a little early tomorrow, wash the car, hit the gym and try and make it in around 2:00'ish. i should be able to wrap up everything that i need to and still have time to get home and make an interesting evening out of cleaning and doing laundy. at least here is to all kinds of planning.

on a tech note, my phone is more or less behaving itself and the fixes that i applied to my computer appear to have made my problems to stay at bay.

and all the rest being left up to chance as an intersting week aproaches.

chana gets here wednesday, and a week from today marks the beginning of milestone 1 at work. SSX Tricky has been played many hours from my couch and Return to Castle Wolfenstein has a place in my heart with its tugs to the games of old. nothing better then killing cartoon nazis.

and i am beat and i am going to watch TV and go to bed.

so it has been a week since chana was here. it was really strange to have someone staying with me for 5 days. it had been a really long time since i was in a situation where i spent so much time around the same person. i find it kind of interesting though, chana talks about falling into her social life again in stride after spending 2 years with someone, and i am having to deal with spending 5 days with someone and how that effects my life. surfice to say, as much as i love chana, and how cool, attractive, and wonderful that she is, i have no desire at this point to live with someone. i really, REALLY like my space. the long weekend and the downtime was really nice.

got a mail from the mysterious and distant brandi knox. looks like things are up in the air again. i wonder if syncronicity is biting me in the ass again.

and kudos to violet for making a decision to be true to herself. i know all about the depths of co-dependancy and how tough those decisions can be sometimes. it is good to see people not doing the same things that i myself have done.

long rambling post continues...

this weekend found me out 3 days in a row (wednesday, thursday, and friday). and come saturday, i really wanted nothing to do with downtown and all of that. i was tired. my body was fed up with beer, and i just needed some time to myself. so i rewired my stereo, and watched some TV. then i settled down and listened to some philip glass after doing that whole christmas list thing. i had almost forgotten how much i love that crazy glass guy, and how much it reminds me of a certain kind of peace that i have yet to find someone to share with. in addition, i ran into amber, my alleged go partner. she popped up, but we crossed phone paths all weekend so oh, well.

all of the sweaterband ads

fin...

today was perhaps the most unproductive day i have had in a long time. it all started this morning with a wait on the delivery of my TV, which rocks. and then kind of just sitting around my desk trying to make sense of the lighting and the temperature and the chair after having not been there for 4 days. i have to wonder if my body and mind intentionally do that to me as some sort of coping mechanism to deal with the hours that i have been known to put in. sometimes it is better not to think about it.

so i have found that a number of my friends are keeping online journals and have taken the time to catch up on their lives by them. and then a mysterious and syncronous call from reify inspired by an ikea catalog. good to hear that he is doing well depite his ability to kill my game at a range of about 1200 miles. oh well, if i were as sexy as that man right there, life would indeed be too good to be true.

i have been invited over for dinner at katori/violet's place tomorrow night. something about cooked onions i have been led to believe and now i get the opertunity to see if all of the boasting about her cooking indeed can be backed up by a demonstration of kitchen prowess. not that i have any reason to doubt her, just that i was absoluty spoiled by wonderful cooking by parentals (pops included).

speaking of cooking, some words of advice for you would-be thanksgiving dinner perparers of fine cuisine out there: always thaw that bird before you get you oven on. and my mom's mashed potatoe recipie will kill you quick with a corinary, but makes you wish that you could die right there on the spot. even if prepared by me, watch out mom, your beef stroganoff is next!!

to all of you out there who are intersted in another anime series worth owning check out cowboy bebop which is currently running in cartoon network's adult swim on sunday and thursday night. if for anything else, check it out for the really top notch soundtrack which has some great jazz influenced tracks. i recently aquired the boxed set for the whole series which includes a soundtrack cd that will probably find itself in some serious rotation in my car and home.

and i just realized that this has turned into yet another long as hell post. oh well, guess i do have to make up for all the time that i wasn't posting anything over the last week or 3.

this evening did provide me with some entertainment. it is entertaining to no end to have inside information and be the recipient of some telling looks and be able to read more into a situation than is probably safe. in addition, katori did turn out to be a fine cook. yummy food for my tummy.

and fuck cartoon network restarting DBZ without finishing the current story arc.

i think that my back is feeling better, but i am still really tired.