goodbye... (yotogi.net)

goodbye...

a while back i responded to a personal ad of a lovely and interesting looking individual. after some time, i recieved a response which stated that they had gotten involved in a relationship recently and were not looking for a boyfriend, but would gladly be willing to explore being friends if i was going to be able to be cool by that. i was, i mean it would probably have been really cool to date her, but i was not going to let a potential friend get lost because of some stupid, 'date me or bye' kind of mentality.

things started out pretty rough, there was some degree of personality clash from the beginning and all that came out in the chats that we had. eventually, i stopped trying so hard to be her friend and things got a whole lot better. conversations opened up and i got to know her a whole lot better.

then seemingly out of nowhere (i hope there was more provication than the post that i made, but i really don't know) i get a mixed message goodbye. on one hand i am told that she can't be the friend that i "need" her to be. on the other i am told that i make her "feel so fucked up". so i will take it as a little of both. she pushed me off partly because she didn't want to hurt me, and partly because she didn't want to deal with the way that i made her feel.

the funny thing is that i never asked her to be more of a friend than she was, although she might have thought that i wanted her to be more than she was able, and she never told me once that i made her feel bad about herself. pretty much just a textbook example of lacking and miscommunication.

i think that i will miss her more than i expect...

Posted on December 13, 2001 10:28 AM | Permalink

Comments (5)

theman:

women....can't live with them, can't kill them with a club anymore.

Or maybe it is can't procreate without them. -=shrug=-

Posted by theman | December 13, 2001 11:29 AM

Posted on December 13, 2001 11:29

takeru:

that is so you it hurts. if there was ever a thing that we disagreed on besides everything, women would be it...

but damn, ahn was beautiful wasn't she?

Posted by takeru | December 13, 2001 2:36 PM

Posted on December 13, 2001 14:36

krink:

that's sad. and the parallells to my recent situation are frightening. but she'll come around in the end... what person in their right mind wouldn't miss you like crazy?

Posted by krink | December 14, 2001 2:58 AM

Posted on December 14, 2001 02:58

takeru:

Funny thing is, she won't come around and i am ok with that.

Posted by takeru | December 14, 2001 10:03 AM

Posted on December 14, 2001 10:03

nameht:

Yes she was. Had a great head on her shoulders and was a very giving person.

Posted by nameht | December 16, 2001 10:43 PM

Posted on December 16, 2001 22:43