i have not felt like myself in quite a while. don't know why. just kinda not suffering from an inability to focus and a strong lack of caring. that changed this weekend. i can feel things starting to come back into focus, and a good thing to, as i have a lot of stuff to get done.
on other less substantial notes, it is amazing to me how time that has past and to some degree distance are nothing, almost completely irrelevant, when compared with the time that is the moment and the distance which applies to it. you can spend years and hundreds of miles away from someone and see them and none of it matters. but then, upon realizing that you want to see that person, the moment lasts forever and the miles seem such an obstacle. surfice to say that my weekend, or today rather was one that brought back many wonderful memories, like a the amazing beauty of a smile, and feeling that comes with an amazing syncronicity despite explanation for it.
i will sleep well tonight.