my sleep cycle is completely backwards now. i find myself awake until all hours of the morning kept awake by my thoughts and my body. i am making use of my time, sending e-mail and working on little things. i wish that i could sleep like a normal person, but i guess that i don't get that privilage.
and i was unfortunatly right. i find myself in a "different place, different time" situation where i am confused about what i can and cannot say, what is right and wrong to do. all i know for sure is a part of me that i have not noticed for over 3 years is awake again, and i missed that part of myself horribly. i will not have any regrets, although i doubt that i will get what i want. called my own bluff, trying to not have any expectations, trying not to hurt anyone around me.
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the sage sleeps when he is tired, eats when he is hungry, shits when he...uh, when he has to shit...
you sound scared; what do you fear?
Posted by charles | August 5, 2002 3:01 PM
Posted on August 5, 2002 15:01
i think that part of me fears that i will end up hurting people that i care about by actions that i do not want to make, but feel that i have to. that and there is probably a great deal of self doubt playing into that as well.
Posted by takeru | August 5, 2002 5:00 PM
Posted on August 5, 2002 17:00