last night i drempt that somehow i was taken back in time 15 months with all of my memories of what had happened during that time. i woke up somewhere in the midst of more strangeness and have had thoughts in my head about it since.
i have had a wonderful year the last year, but in my dream the prospect of having to do it all again was quite disturbing. i thought about how i was not happy at all with the prospect of having to final street, and deal with house stuff again. i am not sure why this bothers me so much, but i think that i will have to give more consideration as to why each day seems more like work and less like something that i would gladly do over again.
i imagine that some of it has to do with the fact that i am busy going alpha at work and a 16 hour day has a tendency to take a good deal more out of you than you expect. maybe i will have more to say about this when i have time to give it more thought.