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September 3, 2000

workin'...

Joy: "He talks about his car more than his girlfriend."
Janke: "That's probably because he probably works on the car more."

homecam...

Posted the link to the camera in my home. Please feel free to check it out and see if I am at home.

EDIT: dead link removed.

random...

"Wish that I could shake this static every time I try to sleep..."

September 4, 2000

random...

Wheels within wheels... unfortunately the story is much more complex than anyone would like it to be.

quote...

"You would never say anything to knowingly decieve me?"
"No."
"Then I guess I understand the situation better with everything you say."
"Don't overanalyze things."
"No expectations. No expectations."

September 5, 2000

wishing for a friend...

11 days and counting (trying to be optimistic), keep Pilot company for me (damn I love that bear), damn I wish that you were awake/paying attention to this/willing to respond to this.

So today I took a

So today I took a lesson in relaxation. Of course, that meant that I fell dead asleep in one of my classes (the hard one). But I did take the time to read Sinfest which contained some pretty funny shit.

Norman caught on fire last night. I haven't taken the time to get the pictures and video we took up but perhaps I will soon. If the mood strikes me. Probably not.

"All my friend have flowers in their eyes / but I got none this season"

September 7, 2000

Sleep is for the weak,

Sleep is for the weak, and I am the weak one as is evident by my behavior tonight.

September 8, 2000

random...

"With all the things I'm loosing / I might as well resign myself and try to make a change..."

September 11, 2000

So someone tells me that

So someone tells me that he likes my page, but most of the stuff here doesn't make any sense because of a lack of context...

So I tells him that there is a lack of context because if I were to give a context then I would have to involve other people who might not want me talking about those situations that involve them. It is by virtue of the vaugeness that I can post anything at all.

Hopefully, I will be able to give more context in the future, if the situations that I am in become less complicated that is.

September 13, 2000

My good friend (little brother?)

My good friend (little brother?) came up to visit last weekend, and boy was it a feast of game madness. I am going down to Dallas this weekend to go and see Dave Mathews with the sister. While I am down there I should be picking up a couple or three new pieces of art by Bob Rohm who, dispite to his web page, is quite the artist. I will be posting pictures when I have the chance.

In more complicated matters, I am not sure what is going on. Not that that should suprise me or anyone else who knows me. Something was said about my ego catching up with me and getting pissed off at being situational. I think that this might be happening. Oh well, what can one do.

Finished up Tales of Pirx the Pilot by Stanislaw Lem yesterday (more info). Am almost through Ubik by Philip K. Dick right now (author stuff). When I read, I guess I really get up in it.

My new favorite rap artist

My new favorite rap artist has a great web site. Se sure to check out the audio that is there. It is some dope ass shit...

September 20, 2000

Been a week... yikes... My

Been a week... yikes...

My ego has caught up with me, refusing to be situational. That is nice. I missed my ego.

Had a blast at the Dave Mathews Band show. Interesting tidbit. All over the arean (Starplex in Dallas) there were signs that read "Recording of the Dave Mathews Band is permitted in all areas". PERMITTED?!? What is up with that? Cool and all I know, but man.

Been reading GPF. I like the story and the idea that the characters actually change over the course of the comic.

September 21, 2000

Our light is off and

Our light is off and it is dark, which makes us afraid.

Matt: I couldn't meet with

Matt: I couldn't meet with the people in my MIS group this week because they were at the Career Fair for two days.
Aaron: Not like it is going to do them any good anyway.
Matt: You are getting more cynical by the day. You are going to be worse than me soon and that is bad.
Aaron: What do you mean? About them getting a job? I wasn't being cynical, I was being realistic.

October 6, 2000

Wooohooo... domain name is finally

Wooohooo... domain name is finally working.

Cass: Yeah, I really hated

Cass: Yeah, I really hated living in Florida. It was summer all year. And sometimes it was Fall.

October 8, 2000

When working out an idea

When working out an idea for an advertising campaign to get females interested in math...

"If you work with numbers, he'll want to work you." Aminda Warburton

So I guess that it

So I guess that it is time for the big status update. Not that I am imagining that anyone actually reads any of this, but sometimes it helps.

Was walking to get some coffee and get some of that pesky homework done. On the side of the road there was this beer bottle. This should strike me as no suprise, except that instead of a Budwiser bottle or something, it is an empty of Asahi, a fine Japanese beer. Kinda makes you wonder.

Of all of the things that I have control over in my life (read very small amound), I have to say that I am 90% happy with the way things are going right now. All of the rest of that stuff is what is making me to be a nice shade of gray.

Learning DirectX so that I can get to work on a nice little video game. Several really interesting bits of technology. I have to say that I am really happy with the API as a whole.

Bought a new controller for my RC car today. Not that this is a very interesting tidbit or anything.

Right now I am really wondering what is up...

October 10, 2000

The guy who writes the

The guy who writes the comic When I Grow Up. Lives in Norman. See if you can catch his location references.

October 13, 2000

So Jill says the funniest

So Jill says the funniest thing to me the other night, but she will not let me post it.

October 16, 2000

It is most certainly interesting

It is most certainly interesting to hear how people's voices can say different things within what they are saying. Sometimes it is how things are said more than what is actually said that is of any interest.

October 30, 2000

Thank the fates for OU

Thank the fates for OU football. It is because of the revenues that some of the places make on game days that allows them to stay open so that I can enjoy them year around.

So this friend of mine

So this friend of mine is jumping my case as I write this to tell me that I don't update this easy-to-update page often enough. Times have been particularly trying lately. Work is good, and school is good and personal stuff is... well you know... personal stuff. But I did talk to a friend this last week and she was wearing a smile for the first time in quite a while and that made me happy.

All I can really say is that school is all well and good until you start interviewing and looking into work after graduation. Then the thought enters your head like, "Well, all of these companies are interested in me, what is it that is so important that I am going to learn in a year that makes me that much better than I am right now?” Then it is all downhill. "Senioritis" sets in and apathy becomes you best friend.

And a post would not be a post without saying that my "little" sister (she is 20 now... yikes!!) rocks the preverbal Kasbah. Yeah on the calculator and the camera. You rock, Jacque.

Good luck pops on the job hunt. Peace...

October 31, 2000

Kelly: But I like polyester...

Kelly: But I like polyester...

November 5, 2000

So the Microsoft interview went

So the Microsoft interview went something in the neighborhood of 80%. Now I rest in waiting hell...

No sleep last night.... a little punchy....

November 13, 2000

OK, big status update... Sill

OK, big status update...

Sill in the holding pattern for Microsoft. I know the letters are being sent but I have not received mine. Funny thing, you would think that to be a good thing, right? Normally the letters that come out are the letters that say that you do not have the job, but the one that I know that has arrived is saying that they want another interview. Shitsticks. Not that I can afford to be all worried with what is up next...

So I sent my resume to Electronic Arts on a whim. Funny thing is they actually replied to me with this little exam. After completing the 4 questions in the requisite 72 hours and sent it to them. So I get the call saying that they recieved my mail and that they are forwarding it on. Monday afternoon I get a call to scedule a phone interview for that Thursday. 40 minutes on the phone and I am waiting for a callback to see if they want to fly me out for a second interview. 24 hours later I am on the phone telling them that flying out the Tuesday before Thanksgiving would be great. Now I contemplate if I should cut my orange hair out. It is imprtant enough to cosider it for sure. Think that I am going to call one of the devs and figure it out.

Work is good, school is trying to kill me. Major project, group project due next week. No sleep for Aaron this week if he can absolutly help it. Must be nice and sleep deprived for the trip to Florida.

November 15, 2000

Got my letter from Microsoft

Got my letter from Microsoft today and they want me to come up for a second interview. I can hardly wait. It should be a short trip but an exciting one none the less.

Hair stays in. Yeah!!

Sleep is for the weak as I have said before. I am trying to keep up on mine but really to no avail for the most part. It is kind of interesting though. The database project is coming along and I am hoping to have it done by the end of the week. That will give me a couple of days to get nice and rested before my interview with EA.

Found out also that I can complete my degree even if I end up in Florida in the spring. Cool. It is good to have options.

Got my letter from Microsoft

Got my letter from Microsoft today and they want me to come up for a second interview. I can hardly wait. It should be a short trip but an exciting one none the less.

Hair stays in. Yeah!!

Sleep is for the weak as I have said before. I am trying to keep up on mine but really to no avail for the most part. It is kind of interesting though. The database project is coming along and I am hoping to have it done by the end of the week. That will give me a couple of days to get nice and rested before my interview with EA.

Found out also that I can complete my degree even if I end up in Florida in the spring. Cool. It is good to have options.

November 16, 2000

Sleep dep is starting to

Sleep dep is starting to set in. Will probably be Sunday night when I give up on making any further progress on the project before any comes.

November 17, 2000

Still waiting to hear back

Still waiting to hear back again from Microsoft as to when I travel up there. Patently awaiting the interview with EA. Recieved an offer from Verizon. Here is the skinny:
  • (edited) Plenty of money.
  • (edited) Signing bonus.
  • 5% of base salary for relocation.
  • Full health, dental, and life insurance.
  • Educational assistance for continuing education.
  • 401K with matching up the 6% of salary.
  • All kinds of opertunity bonuses and raises.

It is really too bad that I am more than likely going to turn them down. It is really a fine package even if I would like to get some more dollars out to it.

Oh, good gravy check out this link to the Final Fantasy Movie Trainer. It made me make a mess of myself. Remember that you can right-click on the link and save that bad boy so that you can view it in all of the fullscreen glory it deserves.

Slept really well last night thanks to the hard work of my great friend Christy. Her skilled hands and endurance at working the knots out of my back allowed for one of the most wonderful nights sleep I have had in a really long time. Nearing completion on the Database project. There may be some weekend in store for me yet.

Props go out to my

Props go out to my friend Kat. She is one funny biatch...

November 18, 2000

Man, talk about disturbing. I

Man, talk about disturbing. I was reading our wonderful school paper (note apearant sarcasm as denoted by italics), and there is this really disturbing article about U-Sing. Now U-Sing is a campus function where organizations, predominatly greek get together and work really hard at singing so that they can perform and win a prize.

Now for the disturbing part (as if that wasn't enough). The following is quoted from the Oklahoma Daily and appeared in this article:

Members of Pi Beta Phi and Pi Kappa Phi have been working almost as long, Barrett Keith, international business freshman, said. Keith plays an out of place Waldo in their act.

"Out theme is Barbie and Ken," said University College freshman Meredith Jones, who plays Barbie. "But, Waldo shows up at our party as an outcast, and it is our job to change him into like the Kens that are there. "

"... into like the Kens...". Man that is too much. I thought that I was perhaps wrong about the greek system at my school being about the conformity, the cloning if you would. I figured that there was something else in addition to all of the trends of fashion and behavior. Guess I was proved wrong. Man...

November 20, 2000

OK, more personal shit. Heading

OK, more personal shit. Heading to Florida for the Big Interview. Man... man... not really sure what to say. Of course no sleep last night only agrivates things. Fuckin' migranes.

November 22, 2000

Watch your dosages of psudoephedrine...

Watch your dosages of psudoephedrine... uhhh...

EA offered. I bit. Florida mid-January.

November 23, 2000

Just a quick little note

Just a quick little note to wish you and yours a happy Turkey day.

This year, as every year, I have a whole metric ass-load to be thankful for. My health is good, my mind and spirit are healthy. Some of my dreams have been realized and others are closer to that day. What I can only hope is that your spirit is well and your hopes are high. Keep up all of your hard work, I believe in you.

OK, enough of that. Funny thing that I saw on my way back from Orlando. The no-smoking/fasten seatbelt sign that was over one of the seats in the plane was upside down. Do you have any idea how funny smoke looks falling instead of raising?

On the tram at the airport there was a sign that said "No food, drink, or smoking" what has happened here when we have rules saying that we cannot have drinks on a 30 second terminal tram ride. In the home of the free the only thing that we can hope is that we don't continue to remove those freedoms.

December 11, 2000

Too busy. Working a site

Too busy. Working a site update... new look en route.

December 19, 2000

OK... site in hosted out

OK... site in hosted out there now... good... all email sent to yotogi.net gets to me. That is the new one. Run with it.

December 24, 2000

Happy Holidays! From Austin!! Heh...

Happy Holidays! From Austin!! Heh...

January 2, 2001

New site design. Hope that

New site design. Hope that you all enjoy.

test two post days... blogger

test two post days... blogger slow... grrr...

January 3, 2001

OK, so after a long

OK, so after a long evening of fighting with blogger, I finally got this site up and running well. I love this technology and how it allows me to keep anything like an updated web page up and running. I would complain about the speed of the servers at times, but I will hold off until I get my donation to the server fund in.

There are no images or sounds or movies up in the media space yet. I will get to that over the next couple of weeks. Yeah, just what the internet needs, pictures of my ugly mug .

Went to really great place tonight called the Baltic Room to listen to some drum and bass and have a couple of pints to finish off the vacation. Really classy place with a great (make that fucking great) atmosphere. Managed to get an ashtray so that I can remember the place for years to come.

Head home tomorrow. It has been a great vacation and I am really ready to get into all of the things that the next year will bring me. New Year's Resolutions? Not really. But maybe one that will count as one is to get better at being myself. There are so many times that we all act like someone we are not. Whether that be to impress or to court or to make ourselves feel better, I think that to do that is to perform a most grave injustice against one's self. Changes can be made without forcing them to come by faking it for all those years.

Oh yeah, forgot this quote:

Oh yeah, forgot this quote:

Charles: So in my next life I want to come back as a pretty girl...

Everything is so much better taken out of context. Here is to more of that in the new year!! Cheers...

January 6, 2001

Observations from Sea-Tac Seattle-Tacoma International

Observations from Sea-Tac

Seattle-Tacoma International Airport is adding a third runway to accomidate for bad weather. In doing so they are going to reclaim about 13 acres of wetlands and 23 acres of non-wetlands. During the expansion they will be cleaning up a great deal of damage already done to the ecosystem surounding the airport. Damage that existed before the airport was there. Nice to see that sometimes development can indeed go hand-in-hand with environmental concerns.

While walking through the airport I came across a guy trying to raise money for what I believe to be a segment of the democratic party backed by Lyndon H. LaRouche Jr. In exchange for $10 I recieved a book and several small publications outlining the tenents of the group. The gentleman doing the recrouting wished for me to give more money, but I held fast with my offer of $10 for more information. Some of what he said had realistic grounds. Some of it was a bit over the top. I intend to read the book and post more when I have more infomation.

Observations on the Economy (stirred by the LaRouche guy in Sea-Tac)

No doubt are there concerns about the economy as we move to a new president. The media are calling it a downturn in the stock market. I am calling in a recentering. The overvaluation of stocks (especially tech stocks and dot-coms) led to a completely unrealistic market.

As I discussed with several of my friends, with the information we have about the changes to the technology market we ought to be able to predict general trends without any difficulty. However, with all of the speculation money in the market, companies that should have showed increases in stock prices due to normal raises in earning and introductions of new technologies showed little movement.

My completely naive advise is to relax, don't panic, and remember that those dollars are not really worth anything when you think about it.

January 11, 2001

Back from a wonderful trip

Back from a wonderful trip to Colorado. Now on to the packing and the moving and the crazy...

Recent Quote:

Diana: You go ahead and be right, I'll be satisfied.

January 15, 2001

Radio Shack is so cool...

Radio Shack is so cool... I was able to update my page from one.

Florida is great. I cannot even begin to tell you about the weather here. Found a place today. I will have pics and such when I get hooked up.

Shouldn't stay on here too long the Radio Shackians might get all upity.

January 22, 2001

First day of work. I

First day of work. I will be making all of the changes to my web page once I am hooked up with the phat pipe on Saturday. Until then some observations.

Loving the new job. Have myself a nice little cube and that is fine by me. I cannot help but be impressed by the resources that are here in terms of both staff and hardware. The people that I have met seem really nice, or at least nice enough. It is certainly true what they say about coders in general though. There are more game addicts here than you can shake a larger-than-life stick at.

Today's Quote:
Jason on EQ: You just can't play two nights a week...

Yikes...

January 23, 2001

Today's Lesson: Confidentiality. An important

Today's Lesson: Confidentiality. An important discussion on what is appropriate to discuss. Good things to know since I intend to keep my job.

Been playing a load of FF9. What a great game. Since I was not all that impressed with FF8 it is really good to see that they have gotten back to the basics of good story and simple interface for this edition. Still on disk 1, many more hours to go.

Once again cannot hessitate to plug Blogger since it is by their technology alone that I am able to do what I do here. Figured that it was a good idea since there are several new readers who might be interested in such a thing.

I will be playing a whole lot of Madden with my job so I am off to it...

January 24, 2001

Planets align and Hindus Bathe.

Planets align and Hindus Bathe.

Problems with close friends preoccupy my free cycles.

As refered to me by

As refered to me by x-ie:
Spielburg does Kubrick's Baby (gotsta have qt).

Since it is in a web page and that sucks, I recomend that you open the url in QuickTime Player.

Today's Tired Rambling (TTR001): One

Today's Tired Rambling (TTR001):
One of the many nice things I can say about my job (as opposed to the many-many that I cannot), is how close my desk is to the bathroom. After a case of Dew, nothing is better than a short trip.

January 25, 2001

(More of) Today's Tired Rambling

(More of) Today's Tired Rambling (TTR002):
From underneith a mound of code I called out to you. It is dark in here, but warm. For now I know for certain why those without homes use newsprint as blankets.

Made progress on FF9 last night despite my intention not to play it at all since I worked so damn late. Disk 2 is where I am whoo hoo... Made my first touchdown in Madden today. That is really exciting. Soon enough I will be able to hold my own against 4 year olds.

Am intending to make plans and get out this weekend. Now it is just a matter of figuring out where to go.

Noticed something on the roof of my car when I was at the post office today. Turned out to be sap. grrr... it is the little things that get you when you weren't paying attention.

January 27, 2001

Finally have broadband in my

Finally have broadband in my home and boy is it nice to be back on the big pipe. I really don't think that there are that many people on my local segment/loop since the connection speeds are really, REALLY fast here. Perhaps it is just that the company rocks, but I really doubt that.

Contact info is now up to date and rocking. I will do my best to get the pictures that I have of the apartment and my adventure with Flat Stanley scanned and up on the site really soon. On a not about getting things, I am still waiting for Ikea to ship me the necessary parts of my desk so that I can actually have a full setup and get things working again. Soon, soon...

Heading into work today. I actually started writing code yesterday. It feels really good to be getting real work done. I have to say that Madden 2002 is gonna rock. I normally do not go in for Football or sports games at all, but this one is really something to behold.

peace...

January 28, 2001

So it is going to

So it is going to be a few more days until I get my desk... this bothers me a little although I now have most of the things in my office arranged. Today has been a cleaning and laundry day. I guess that is OK, since if it were not for the football game today, I would have been in the office working on code...

I came to realize last night while talking to someone on NM, that I have been asking several people this question:
"So what are you playing?"
and I find that really amusing.

So I talked to a

So I talked to a completely cool and honest person tonight on NM. It was rather refreshing... she was a woman from Illinios with a cam and a kid and she was quite nice. It certainly beats the "hey show me your stuff" conversation, which is normally how it goes. Kinda gives me hope for the human race.

Missed most of the Super Bowl comercials tonight. Guess I will scoot over to Adcritic to check them out this week. Did catch the VW one for the GTI with the car stuck up in the tree. That was clever, but I am bias in that regard. Although it is the second car in tree commecial running right now. Wonder if it is a trend. hmmm...

Since I apearantly write code

Since I apearantly write code and in code:
NM: Netmeeting
<G>: Big Grin
<g>: Little Grin
<p>: Pout
pttt: ptttt

January 29, 2001

Making of Crouching Tiger, Hidden

Making of Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon. Decent article, great movie.

As I have said, "Fuck

As I have said, "Fuck Lieberman". That sensoring bastard is up to is old tricks again. Read about it here. I don't believe that companies should market violence or sex to children, but the idea of this line of advertising is, IMHO, bullshit and just an excuse to get tighter control of the industry for the government.

January 30, 2001

Talked to an old friend

Talked to an old friend last night. It was good to hear that dispite all of the bad that she has had to endure and in a sense all that I encouraged her to endure that she is getting better every day. It is strange the people that you leave behind who you actually miss. It is also amazing to me how much a smile can mean, especially when it is one so beautiful.

January 31, 2001

Got a wonderful opertunity to

Got a wonderful opertunity to play The Bouncer in the office today. I can only say that I was a little (spread arms wide) let down by the whole thing. I believe that Dream Factory (the dev studio) has dumbed down the interface so that anyone can play. But that, in my opinion, is what made Tobal No. 2 one of the best fighters ever. I just hope that there is something that I am missing since the game was in Japanese and the menus nearly impossible to use.

X-ie has been filling my inbox with fine, high-quality mail. In the next couple of days I will be bringing my brain (rested) to bear on the topics presented there. I will be sure to post anything of any interest or revelation here.

Speaking (typing) of things piling up in my inbox, Dianna sent me an organ which arived fresh today. This and other images availible in the media area of this site.

Milestone passed, now the real work begins.

edited 04.22.01 7:46pm: removed image links as they are now gone.

February 2, 2001

i think about that look

i think about that look in your eyes and how the corners of your mouth turn up when you smile
as if i could only guess at the things going through your head
i think about you walking around my apartment naked some morning... going off to see if there is any dew in the fridge
taking your time walking across the living room
the sound of your bare feet on the wood floors
the way the sun coming through the windows highlights your waist and back
i think about being gaurded in public
never knowing when you might pull me aside
somewhere out in the open
and that hungry anxiousness in your movements
the ones that cannot be fought
i think of how your hair must look flying back as your throw your head around
eyes shut and mouth open just slightly something unspeakable under your breath
and how all of that could be captured in an instant in your eyes
and how if you let your guard down for just a second the real you would be too wonderful to ever put back behind the caution
that is what i think about

Looks like Sega is going

Looks like Sega is going to be releasing Saturn games on the PSOne. Crazy. Although it would be good to see those few really good Saturn games make their way there. Whoo hoo, Knights.

February 3, 2001

Although Netmeeting is one cool

Although Netmeeting is one cool tool... it is tempremental as hell. Oh well, since it is free I guess you get what you pay for.

Meir on German Automotive Engineering:

Meir on German Automotive Engineering:
"It's that mathematical humorless precision..."

February 4, 2001

Wow. I had a really

Wow. I had a really great day yesterday. Got a great nights sleep. Went to the XFL game with people from work and then went out for a few drinks with a cool guy who lives a couple of cubes down from me at the office.

Interesting things that I saw last night:

  • Raver poser carrying a cel phone off of his cargo pants pocket with so many blinky lights he looked like a discoteque.
  • More women than I can count wearing skimpy clothing yet walking around freezing.
  • A girl trying to get the attention of the 3 guys that she knew ahead of them by flashing them from behind. The were not paying attention and missed the whole thing. When they turned around she looked embarassed.
  • Clove smoking frat boys.
  • An older teenage girl wearing a sweatshirt from the Limited Too.
  • The amazingly vacant eyes of a woman sweeping the streets.

And perhaps the best thing:
A guy tying his girlfriend's shoe, provoking the though, "That is indeed love..."

Interesting things that I heard last night:

  • Daniel on EQ:
    Enough with the elf logic, enough with the magic building skills...
  • Daniel on messed up people:
    You are so messed, your porn scares me...
  • Daniel on a girl he once dated:
    Daniel: She was like the difference between a 60 watt and an 80 watt.
    Aaron: But that is a lot.
    Daniel: Not during the day.

And that is just what I was able to write down on napkins and my arm. I was glad to be carrying a pen. I am going to have to get a digital camera. Some of this stuff only makes sense unless you can see it or were there, and you are probably neither.

So I find out today

So I find out today that a friend of mine back home is a closet romantic. I always though that was the case...

Oh... I almost forgot. So

Oh... I almost forgot. So I went to Einstein Bros. Bagels the other day and was being helped by one of my favorite employees Jen. There was another girl working there stocking the cooler. When I walked in they exchanged some words via non-verbal communication. While I was standing at the counter, I turned around to see the girl stocking the cooler turn quickly away. I think that I might have caught her checking me out. Funny and flattering situation all around.

February 5, 2001

Insomnia how I loathe thee,

Insomnia how I loathe thee, let me count the ways... "One monday morning, two tuesday morning..."

Added a new picture in

Added a new picture in the Media section.

Insomnia can kiss my white ass. I do indeed have blue hairs although with the blue of my monitors it is not like you care.

Finally sleep comes...

Finally sleep comes...

I am completely spent today.

I am completely spent today. I can only hope that my insomnia does not choose to visit me again tonight.

So I asked Jen out for coffee today and gave her my number. I am determined to explore and break through the bounds that I have held myself to for all of these years. I am tired of being in a place where I have walls around me. It is almost there. I can feel it coming and I don't think that I can stop it even if I want to.

So I get this in my e-mail about the Final Fantasy Movie.

Not that much to it but I guess that I will post it anyway just in case anyone is tracking this kind of thing like I am. Also linked in the Media section.

February 6, 2001

Insomnia did not visit last

Insomnia did not visit last night and it was wonderful. I slept like a great big rock.

Work was work today. I am not sure that I got all that much done, but I am certain that I am set up to get a whole lot done.

Jen was at the Bagel store this morning, but not working. She caught me outside to tell me that she really couldn't go out with me on account of her having a boyfriend and all. She said that the reason that she hadn't said anything the day before was that she was so flattered. I am somehow not really upset by all of this. It was really enough that she said OK in the first place. I told her that it was quite alright, that I was glad that she told me as opposed to not calling, and that if she was going to go out and do something in a group to let me know. I am really looking for friends right now. People to hang out with and all.

There are a whole lot of things that I have come to think about as a result of my mailings with a friend back home. One is that I am not intemidated by anyone. I think this is because I know that there are people out there better at something than me. It is in that acknoledgement that I loose the intimidation. I think this is necessary since I don't believe that anything other than fear can come from such feelings.

The traffic on my site has been going up and I cannot be sure who is actually reading this. I know some of the people who do, but for the most part, feel free to rip me a mail and let me know what you do or do not think.

So another thing that pops to mind is how close I am to reaching a major breakthrough in my life. For a really, REALLY long time I have been keeping myself and, more so, my emotions in check. This has led to I believe several things. One, I know that when I need to I can exert control on my emotional state in order to get things done. Two, performing the activities of limiting one's self leads to unspent creative energy. Three, I have been doing this holding back for way too long. So, I have been letting it run a little loose these last couple of weeks. I can feel a huge back-pressure of things just waiting to come pouring out. I hope that no one else gets caught up in it. No wait, that is not right. I hope that everyone I know can get caught up in it and use that energy to its fullest.

Something perhaps tells me that those of you who read this have noticed the change. If you haven't been keeping up, just take a look at the length of the posts and how much more they say out in the open. Check out the bit of creativity that leaked out on 02.02.2001. Oh it has been a long time coming and it is going to be so good.

Going out with Daniel to grab a beer and check out some music tonight. Take care all, and Chuck, I will call.

February 7, 2001

Things that I saw last

Things that I saw last night:
  • A lead into sex in public that turned into something unknown behind a curton, that turned into getting busted. All in a restaurant where I was having dinner. All in all, it turned out to be nothing really.
  • A guy in a really bad 80's hat, doing a really bad 80's attempt at a dance.

Things that I heard last night:

  • From a girl at the restauant to some guy: I am the nicest person. So nice, so nice. I think that that is my problem. That is what pisses me off.
    No, I am afraid it is your nievity that is your problem not you niceness.
  • Bad "new dance" music.
  • An even worse remix of Janet Jacksons's Nasty Boys

Not all that bad of an evening. There is talk about a mind blowing experience on Thursday, however.

Blue hair and all. Requested

Blue hair and all. Requested picture also in Media.

Great day. Work is outstanding.

Great day. Work is outstanding. Grabbed a beer and a nice chat with the neighbor. The owner is remodeling part of the house that I live behind and my water is turned off... we are taking care of this momentarily.

No real profound thoughts today, just feeling tired and wonderful after a day well spent.

February 8, 2001

So Starcraft clans are getting

So Starcraft clans are getting busted. Check out this little story. All I have to say about that is what the fuck?

Oh so she is so

Oh so she is so slim and sexy... soon she will be in my house... pictures later...